A hug from a distance,
a warmness that lasts a minute,
the cold of winter surrounding our naked bodies.
You turn on the other side,
and I follow the strange presence of a body,
a warm human body next to mine.
Your kisses are full of heaven,
but inside I burn of emptiness,
while your smile was everything I wanted to see,
on that cold, dark night.
Just for one little time, just on that moment.
And I promise you that I won’t try it anymore,
I won’t dream of me and you anymore,
I will just turn away from your story.
My destiny is far away,
the long-needed separation is behind the corner,
I’m starving of being good at something,
the accent I can’t understand,
the automatic response of my brain.
A future, from where I will be able to watch that single night,
smile at it, write to you,
and find that same old fragile tension.
The last hopes that hold me here,
thin ropes about to stretch and break,
letting me free to fly in the warmer air of the path,
all dreams funnel on iron wings,
in the sun, in the brilliance I can see under palm trees,
other people, other fears,
and in dreams, I’m sure I will still hold your warm hands,
my last rope,
my last invisible grip.
My mind looms over the fog,
like a barrier between me and the world,
a desire of intimacy that still lingers in my heart,
your fingers I once crooked are touching my soul,
and there’s an image you created,
a galilean joke that you appreciate,
while the silence goes on,
even in this sunny autumn day.
A day where I’d like to forget about life,
because I don’t know what I’m looking for.
Whatever it is, I’ve not found it yet.
Should I look for something better?
Should I search among the bluest skies?
An old-time movie plays on the background,
memories of a time not-so-far, not-so-near,
a time when I was just a wish, a desire of a woman,
What were you thinking?
That’s just confusion,
Nonsense becomes sense,
embrace me and never let me go,
fulfill the ocean in my lungs,
make me breathe the purest thin air.
Let me wrap my hands around your neck,
let me kiss your lips once again,
let me go away and live far away from here,
let me gather intentions on a line.
All I want is to smile again,
a change. Am I really good at change?
I’d change everything, but it won’t change nothing.
Alas, I want hope.
Embrace me. Let me breath.
Your presence still lingers around me,
I find myself singing the music we sang when we were together,
I’m still waiting patiently for you to see,
how much I loved you.
So tired of this lonely air,
Watching shadows and people pass by.
Drums played by a broken heart,
a rhythm I’m trying to breathe.
It doesn’t matter if you return to me,
you set me free,
and the love we lived has been so pure,
that I can just say thank you to you.
In my hands shines the gold your skin released,
in my mind the smiles we shared are blinding stars,
When we kissed in the sunset, in water,
When you embraced me so tight I was sure you’d have been mine forever,
when you kissed me goodbye.
You refuse to see this,
so don’t see it anymore,
I’ll keep the fire burning,
waiting for the next step,
remembering your sweet eyes,
crying for them for good.